Yes it is true, I feel like shrek. Remember that part where Shrek says “Ogres have layers”, and comes up with this analogy that he’s like an onion? That’s me.
Psalm 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within. This was my prayer. I was driving and meditating on God and it came to mind that the moment I asked God to take from me anything that gets in the way of him, layers and layers of things came up for me to face. Small things and huge things. Things in my physical body, things in my marriage, things as a mother, sister, daughter, friend and things that people would never understand because for me they were in the way of God. My heart was foolish. The bible is so clear to watch our heart.
- Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.
- Romans 1:21 For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened.
- Jeremiah 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?
- Proverbs 21:2 Every way of a man is right in his own eyes, but the Lord weighs the heart.
- Matthew 15:18-19 But what comes out of the mouth proceeds from the heart, and this defiles a person. For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false witness, slander. These are what defile a person.
These are just some of the many verses about our hearts. I so recommend reading the word so that we can grow and in growing our heart softens to the Lord if we are humble to accept.
In it all I learned that just being “nice” doesn’t save you. Just being “sweet” doesn’t save you. Just the same being a “honest” person doesn’t save you. Having a Christian checklist isn’t any good. Thinking I’m better than people defenitly didn’t help. The bible says in Ephesians 2:8-9 For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. Nothing to do with actions but when it comes down to accepting Gods peeling of your heart it does require actions to get rid of it. I’ve learned the hard way to listen to Gods rebuke for my life. I’ve learned to let go of things that hurt to know was in the way of God. I’ve learned that when the Holy Spirit tells me to do something and presents the opportunity, I have a chance to glorify God. Those are the moments of truth for me. I can ask and ask God to change me and he did, but before that he presented MANY opportunities for me to make the choice of what I was to do. Some choices were reversible and I’m so happy for those. Some are not and I learned that small things have great consequences and God lets us see it. He’s not a bad guy that points out sin to make us feel bad, he give us the chance to see how great sin is and a chance to repents from It and stay away.
I feel like even with my Shrek attitude God was able to soften my heart. He is a gentleman and knocks at the door of our hearts. We make the choice to let him in and let’s us see where were wrong so we make a choice to change. And in the process find amazing love like never before.
The moment I said YES to God’s will and not mine, I never thought that it would have been the process it was and continues to be. Allowing the lord to guide my days and walk (even though at times seems ridiculous) allows me to experience people and things I would of before ignored. What a privilege to be able to witness people grow in Christ and be part of the journey. To be able to let go of worldly things that I was holding on to for dear life. To see my sin so up close that my heart would hurt to know it.
I have made so many mistake in my life, but im not ready to stop just yet in my journey of being an onion. I love being corrected by the Holy Spirit because I know then, that he is REAL and that everytime I listen to God something AMAZING happens in my heart and life. My marriage has changed drastically, my home routines, my heart and it’s all thanks to God who peels my Shrek layers away. This last verse was one that spoke so clearly to me: Ezekiel 36:25-27 I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleannesses, and from all your idols I will cleanse you. And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes and be careful to obey my rules. I love how God is peeling away at my heart every day. Not going to lie though, there are things I didn’t understand as to why I had to get rid of them, some days I say to myself that it’s not all that bad. Days where I see myself being put In situations where my pride gets the best of me. Forgiving or turning the other cheek or God telling me to apologize even if the other person doesn’t accept or feels they deserve it when they have hurt me too and I never get an apology. Oh our heart is foolish. But allow God to come in and take on the challenge of letting him peel all your Shrek layers away and you’ll see that all his plans are good. All his ways are perfect and all he asks you to do will benefit you, your salvation and your family. Soften your heart to the change and keep a strong mind to be able to understand that his will is perfect and worth it.