There is a little voice inside, and it says many things.
I must admit that they are not always things I want to acknowledge I heard.
” Invite her over for lunch“, it says. * I don’t want to little voice, she has hurt my feelings in the past and I don’t want to confront that, her loss* I say.
” Today I want you to go out of your way to serve your next door neighbor” it says. * I have so much to do today little voice, I have to re-clean my whole house* I say.
” Your husband is talking, won’t you listen“? it says. * Little voice, I really don’t care to listen, Its not important to me and I really just want to finish this blog because what I have to say is much more interesting to me.* I say.
” Pick up that wrapper on the floor” it says. * Ugh, I didn’t do it.* I say.
” Today I want you to play with your daughters, not your phone“, it says. *I am sooo tired little voice, I stayed up on FB/TV and don’t have coffee, you know I don’t “function” without a substance*. I say.
” That woman sitting there on the bench, needs to hear about Jesus Christ ” it says. * Little voice, she is of different color and might not like me. Plus, I could get in trouble or persecuted* I say.
These are just some of the opportunities I miss daily, all because I am to selfish to see what God has to teach me. As Lysa Terkeurst wrote in her book “The best yes”, she wrote “They are missed, because I was busy-caught in the rush of endless demands. And the rush makes us rebellious”.
Many times, *resentment* toward someone has held me back from pushing forward and learning great things. Lessons that God would want me to learn. Those whispers I hear. Those opportunities I pass up. I mess up daily, I lay down regretting the missed assignments God had placed that day in my path. I don’t want my resentment to determine my God given relationships.
There has been many time I use my schedule as an excuse to turn down opportunities I have,THAT morning prayed God would give me, except I was to busy to see them. Then I would go to bed praying God would, maybe give me an assignment tomorrow since today he hadn’t. I don’t want my schedule to determine my obedience to the one who created that very day I was given by grace.
There could also be selfish deeds that rob me of strengthening my marriage because my ” gift” need to be heard. So whatever my husband has to say, NEEDS to be interesting to me. I don’t want my selfishness to determine how my marriage is built, because we all know living with someone selfish is pure hell and well Jesus calls us to serve our Husbands. To be their helper not their busy, eye rolling burden.
Even the smallest of request could sound stupid if we see it with natural eyes. Like picking up that wrapper on the street I’m so convinced to pick up but my laziness overshadows my desire to listen to that little voice. I don’t want the little things to slip out of my hands, all because they are not seen by others and can’t get credit for it.
I know many times, I miss God driven assignments with my own daughters because of my irresponsibility to go to bed early to be 100% recharged the next 6am morning, always threatened by YouTube marathons or Netflix shows that don’t feed me spiritually. Then blame my children for talking to me before coffee, how disgusting is this attitude. Relying on caffeine rather God to “help” me is probably one of the most arrogant things I’ve encountered now in days. I don’t think it’s funny, and my children, my inheritance from the Lord should not have to be silenced of their God given voices and mornings, breaths all because we prefer to stay up late and need coffee to function.
Lastly, I don’t want to silence that voice that drives me to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ with someone, all because I come to my own conclusions I will some how die in the process of sharing the truth, or the person might dismiss this because I’m brown and they are not. How ignorant of me, I’m glad Paul wasn’t me or imagine he missed all the opportunities he has to share all because of these excuses above? The Gospel would of never reached us as quickly as it did.
You see this little voice was given to us, to guide us and to help us, John 14:26 “But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you”. That little voice is NOT your heart, its the Holy Spirit. Let it guide you everyday. Open your agenda for the Glory of God. Will you come along me and pray God helps us hear his Spirit? For us to be wide, eyed to see when he opens the doors to those life, giving experiences? I am so convinced that God want us to be led by his Spirit and not our agenda, resentments, selfishness, fears, laziness, substance absence or excuses. Romans 8:9 You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him. Today I confess I need to get on my knees and ask the Lord to forgive me for putting him last and for ignoring his Spirit. Please join me today and ask the Lord for forgiveness, obedience and courage. Let us get up every morning with a purpose, opened to his will. Love you readers and please pray for me as I pray for those who read my blog.